I shook his hand the same as the others. I Poignant personal lesson. him in the eye. Great love welled in my heart. But no words would come. Where moments earlier expressions of specific gratitude for the service of a particular missionary flowed; now the words would not come. This disturbed me. Why could I not express what was in my heart?
Later, I realized it was a powerful object lesson meant for both of us.
I loved this missionary the same as the other missionaries. He had served well and done many hard things. President had counted on him with specific assignments. But there was on thing he hadn’t done.
At the last zone conference he had accidentally let slip, “I don’t read President’s weekly emails.” As I reflected upon his accidental confession, I wondered why he would want to serve without knowing what the Lord had revealed for the whole mission - because that is the content of President’s weekly email. As I thought about possible reasons why, I realized that President’s emails come on preparation day when a missionary writes their friends, family, other missionaries, and has time for some personal pleasures. Perhaps those things took precedence.
That thought was followed by a much, more powerful realization. When I get busy and only give the Lord a glance at His words found in the scriptures, instead of the serious seeking I do on other occasions, I am doing the same thing. How ridiculous not to daily know what the Lord wants me to know because I didn’t give myself enough time for serious seeking.
This has been a personal lesson. The Lord still has great love for us. The Lord still extends his arm to us. But when we do not read His scriptures, we are not able to hear His voice. A voice He so wants to use.